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Hi so I am not very well I have get the Mumps with is not very nice and I am sleepy all the time and I am getting upset a lot over very little things . But it should be better in about a week or so . I really hope that it will be . There then that I am doing ok college was really good and very interesting we get to see a video from the 1950s of a women in counselling it has change a lot less then I thought it would have . It was still just to people talking trying to find out what was ture for this women . I did make me think a lot about myself and why I look to others so much . Sometimes I feel like I can not think for myself . I think that I am tranfering my feeling on the other people trying to make them everything that I want to be and when they trun out not to be I fall apart . I don't know what I am going to be up to in the next few days I guess not very much

A Heightened Life

Hi happy tuesday I am today I think it will be a movie day right now I have get on All the real girls I love that movie it stars Zooey Dechanel . I think it is her best movie even if I do really want to see Winter passing and she has get a album coming out this year with M Ward with sounds really good . I hope that Lisa-Marie is feeling better today . I don't know what I would do without my sleep . I am a mess at the best of times without that

. I think that I may put on closer later there is some really good music on that show my favorite song is Cold Water by Damien Rice " Cold, cold water surrounds me now and all I've got is your hand Lord, can you hear me now ? Lord, can you hear me now ?Lord, can you hear me now ? Or am I lost ? " . I have find an artist that I really like her name is Lucy Stevens she has done like of kinds of art . My favorite bit of her work is on fear and how the audience reaction . I would like to find out more about fear to and why it plays such a big roll in are life fear of not being liked fear of getting older fear of feeling lost and without hope fear of not having dreams " Without dreams you can't fucking live" . I really hope that I can get hold of a few people today everyone seems to be busy lately it will be nice to see them all tomorrow and to do some fun things .

Tension & thrill

Hi . I could not sleep lastnight I was thinking about college and the work that I have get to do for it . I can not wait to make a start on it . I love having something to put my mind to something to put all of myself intoit is a great feeling to have a goal to work to . I feel like I could write all the time there is so much going on in my mind . I wish that I had a few more people to talk to sometimes . I have been waching the Office a lot lately the American one . I love Jim and Pam they are as sweet and as well played as you can get . I am happy that they get togeter in the end . Here is a very funny line from the show " This is our receptionist, Pam. If you think she's cute now, you should have seen her a couple years ago " . My picture today is of Susan Buice from Four Eyed Monster . She is an artists and a life bloger and she has made a really good movie . I think there is a sadness and a longing to her art it has get a very human feel to it and it is very honest . I hope there will be lots more art to come from her . I feel really good about life there is so much going on and I want to live and feel all of it . " Some of us just can't live the kind of life that other people want us to live. No matter how hard you try, you just can't do it" .

Flicks

Hi happy Sunday . I had nice evening yesterday Forrest Gump was on the tv . I have loved that movie for a really long time it is a great look at life and what finding someone to love can give you people just do not work alone maybe we where made that way . I like moves that make you think I as saw My life without me on dvd yesterday I love this line fron it " You don't know who or what you're praying to, but you pray. You don't even regret the life that you're not gonna have, because by then you'll be dead. And the dead don't feel anything. Not even regret " . That is a really good move and Sarah Polley is great in it . I could see that movie time after time . Sometimes I think it could be nice to live without tv and all that crap like that . I would love to just take myself out of the westen world there much be a great freedom to it . Well that is why never put the radio on it was on in a shop that I want in the other day and I had to work out . It really did make me feel bad to hear it . I wish that music was in the hands of people who care about it and do not just want to make money or just want to make themselfs look cool . It is like Jeff Buckly said " but You don't really care for music do your " . I am so that that more people do not care about it like me that is one of my great's sadness in life . I really think I should try to talk to someone about why I feel like that .

Just for now

I had a very nice yesterday I get to meet a lovely artist in a new art shop in Tunbridge wells yesterday she was really nice and a big fan of Michel Gondry so I now that we would hit it off . We talk for about 20 mims with was really nice and I hope that I will get to see her again . I find a really good singer the other day called Holly Golightly she has been arond for I long time but I have just find out about her . I don't know how I missed her . I love todays picture it is of my favorite band in the world The Research who are Russell , Sarah and Georgia . They have get an album out called Breaking up and they should have a new one out this year that I know will be great . They are all really nice to and I miss seeing them live . I am not sure what I am going to be doing to maybe have the fa cup on the tv or maybe go for a walk or something like that . I hope that my cold gets better soon I am getting a bit fed up with it . I feel sleepy all the time and my legs really hurt . I think that I should try to eat better . I just pick at food all day and eat lots of little bit that do not really fill me up .

Whipsper what you fear

Hi . I am off to Tunbridge Wells today I like it a lot there a lot it is a very nice town . I have been thinking about the human conditon I love finding out about it and how we all live with it . What I get the worse is fear sometimes it is over powering and all you want to do is find somewhere hind . This line always makes me feel better " People are just people they shouldn't make you you nervous" . I really wish that they did not I don't know why I give some of them so much power over me . " We hold these truths to be self-evident that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights that among these are Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness" . I feel like I am no the pursuit of happiness but I that I have been all my life maybe we all are looking for that . I would like to know if anyone ever really finds it or if the grass is always greener on the other side ? Today picture is of Joanna Newson I would love to see her live more then anything . I am sure that she is not from this time or world . Here is good a good weekend and a life time of worrying

I'm happy sad

Hi it has been a funny few days very happy and down . I think that it could be my cold trying to hold on . I was feeling so good yesterday then I was feeling very bad and it did not want to let go but I do feel better today . I get on really well at college even if someone is being a bit funny with me lately I hope that I have not upset them . I should talk to talk to a few more people on the phone I have not talked to some of them for a really long time and I miss some of them . I wish I did not have to change my mood so must I do this with food , music or anything that makes the world seem a little bit better . I think the best thing I could do would be to know that they are only feeling and they will past as U2 said " And if the night runs over and if the day won't last and if your should falter along the stony pass it's just a moment this time will pass . I think you should always try to keep that in mind . No matter how bad today is there is always tomorrow . Things are going very well with my girlfriend I don't know what I would do without her . She is always there for me when I need someone to hold and for that I will always love her and try to do my best for her . I want to tell her that she meens the world to me and that she always will do anything for her she is my bestfriend to and really do know how lucky I am to have that " What the world needs now is love sweet love that the only there is just to little of " . Todays picture is of Lisa Hannigan who has get an album coming out this year and I can not wait for it

Born in the 80s

I had a good day yesterday and today is one of my favorite day of the week . I have get some college work to do today . I think everyday I am going to put up a picture of one of my favorite things - people today is the lovely music loving Lisa-Marie . I will never forget the day I talked to her on the phone I was so worryed about talking to her that I was almost sick . It was like talking to my favorite singer - artists . I was so worryed about this phone call that I made a nice list of things to talk about " Tv " " Music " " How is the famliy " . I know I am a really dork . In the end I did need the list and she was really nice . I think it is nice to let people know that you are thinking about them and that you care . I hope there will always be a Lisa-Marie in the world as Starsailor said " As I turn to you and I say thank goodness for the good souls that make life better As I turn to you and I say If it wasn't for the good souls Life would not matter " . I am happy with life with where I am and with who I am well that is today any way .

Some people have REAL problems

Hi it was a good weekend . I want out for a nice dinner with my famliy and then did a bit of shoping . It was nice to go out with everyone we don't get to do that much . I am not sure what I am going to be doing this week . Me and my girlfriend are hoping to go to Manchester this year where we are hoping to see some of the work of Gunther Von Hagens his work is really interesting it is all about the human boby . I really hope we get to go I have not been away for a really long time . I have get a new tv show that I really like La lnk it is a about tattoos and it stars Kat Von D and it is really good I have been been into anything like that before I saw that show but I really like them now and I may even get one some day but I know that I would pass out . I have really wanted to go to London for the pass few days . I can not wait till the 21 of fed when I do get to go I just love it there . There is no where like it and I wish that I could go there more . The picture I have up today is of Sophie from the band Sol Seppy there album is called the bells of 1 2 and it is so good . It get you to look at everyone as being human and not someone to get to get one over or just like for the diffevences " all people really want is to be loved "

Born of frustration

Hi I hope you all like my now grow up blog . Where I am sure I will still go on about things that no one elses cares about or say how bad everything is well I guess you are what you are . I have been thinking about Annie Hardy from Giant Drag a lot lately I love her so much . I love her for having the guts to be herself and not editoring herself . She really does give me hope and makes me feel light . I have been listing to her on her radio show and she is so funny . Annie has send me some messages before and they are always really nices and careing . I think it much be hard for people in music to know that they have so many people who care about them and think about them . To have to be friends with people without really knowing them . I think that you can know so must about a person from there music or there art . That is what good music should do talk to you tell you that things may be crap but there is someone there for you . Here is my favorite line from Almost famous " I always tell the girls, never take it seriously, if ya never take it seriosuly, ya never get hurt, ya never get hurt, ya always have fun, and if you ever get lonely, just go to the record store and visit your friends " . Ow and I am not to sure about the new newcastle manager but I guess that time will tell . I give him two years max before he walks